Wow. The day is FINALLY here! My book Joy Actions is finally ready to be read by an audience! I am beyond excited, nervous, full of joy, and scared out of my mind! LOL. This book has been a true labor of love from start to finish, not just in the writing of it, but especially in the living of it. My prayer warriors and I have been praying over it and we continue to do so. My heartfelt prayer is that it will bless those who read it and point them to my Jesus.
While I am excited beyond measure, the whole month of March, especially March 16 & 17, is difficult. Twenty-one years may have passed since we first heard the words, "There's no heartbeat," but these are the days when it feels as if every year, every month, every day, every hour, every minute, every second of the past 21 years fall away as if they were nothing. My heart aches even while it soars to new heights.
Yes, I have written a book about joy--choosing joy, but that does not mean that doing so is easy or that it has been easy over the years. I have days when I am easily able to choose joy when I see God's glory in every speck of dust. But during the month of March, I have days when choosing joy is more challenging than holding my breath for longer than a few seconds.
While the rest of the world is focused on this coronavirus and all that is going on with it, all I can think about is how twenty-one years ago, I was lying in a hospital wondering why in the world I had to deliver my baby who was already silent. And I'm excited about the fact that my very first book is published and available for mass reading.
*sigh*
I hope that you will pray for me especially during this difficult time.
I hope that you will pray for my book to a blessing to all who read it.
I also hope that you will buy my book and read it!
Much love to all,
PollyAnna Joy
Joy Actions is available both with and without illustrations (by Jan Lindie) and in a Kindle version: https://smile.amazon.com/Joy-Actions-PollyAnna/dp/1710720301/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=Joy+Actions&qid=1584400511&sr=8-1
There is so much to be JOY-Full about in the month of March: my parents' anniversary, birthdays for a number of friends, family, and loved ones, good things happening at work and in my personal life, and first day of Spring. So many wonderful reasons to Celebrate.
But as we move further into the month of March, my heart is heavy,
too. Exactly two weeks from today, James Isaac would have been turning 18 years old. This is the year he would be graduating from high school and going off to college. But I'm not helping anyone select just the right college. I don't have to worry about filling out college applications or scholarship applications. Or even begin praying over him as he prepares to enter the military--that certainly could have been a realistic choice for him. I'm not spending any money for Senior portraits, graduation cap & gown, graduation announcements, a class ring, or even a downpayment on a place for him to live. We aren't visiting colleges.
I'm not preparing myself for the day when he gets in his car and drives off to school--or we drop him off--and our home has one less body. I'll never tease him about only coming home so Mom can do his laundry or fix him a good, hot meal.
He won't be going to see much-anticipated movies like Logan or John Wick with his brother [or me]. I won't be dragging him to see the live-action version of Beauty and the Beast as his 18th birthday present since it opens on his birthday.
We aren't planning a family Senior trip for both my nephew and James Isaac as we should be doing.
As others celebrate St. Patrick's Day, we celebrate life and love and the loss of a life. So when I wear Blue on March 17 instead of green, don't pinch me. I'll ALWAYS wear blue on March 17.
Always.
I can't tell you how desperately I want to have such wonders going on right now.
*Don't worry. I'm ok. My heart is just heavy.
